puppy!

Dillon finally let me borrow his puppy!!! His name is Nemo and he already loves me. I’m going to get very attached and it’s going to be terrible when I have to give him back. But it’s nice to have a dog around. I was extremely jealous of my sister’s dogs, even though Melissa’s is retarded and Adrienne’s is fat Nemo is the cutest by far. If  I can figure out how, I’ll put pictures up later. I hope I can keep him and the apartment doesn’t find out…

So, first day of school. I got up at 6:15 so I could make sure puppy was fed and walked, and of course it was pouring down rain. French was ok. Advanced French literature. I thought it was going to be terrible and basically that class was the reason I was dreading coming back to school, but the prof seems nice and he pretty much said we’d all get As and Bs if we came and did our homework. Which I would have done anyway. In about 15 minutes I’m heading to Design I…hopefully it goes as well as drawing did.

My favorite part of today is that I got a free Jimmy Johns sandwich! I think everyone I know is aware of this event already and it just happened an hour ago. I get easily excited about stuff, especially if it involves food or it’s free, and this is BOTH!

Project Runway tonight!

sorry…

i haven’t posted in a while. and there’s really no excuse. i haven’t been busy, at all. one day i actually didn’t move from the couch for 7 hours. and this really proves my talent for extreme laziness, which is why i haven’t been on here in so many weeks.

that surprise from earlier was me getting my septum pierced. no, it didn’t hurt. no, it doesn’t make me want to sneeze all the time. boogers were kind of a problem for a few weeks, but i’ve worked out all the kinks. usually, as in 98% of the time, i really like it, but sometimes i hate it and wish i didn’t have it.

other than that, let me just sum up the rest of the past month with a quick list, as i feel another bout of laziness coming on

-i went to lubbock to visit my sister

-i went to college station to visit a bunch of people (michelle, justin, barry, lydia, tim h, emanuel, joyce, zac, james)

-my sister came to visit!

-my sister’s dog proceeded to shit in my room and eat my  favorite purse from london. i still love him.

- i lost my keys. it sucked.

-i bought a sweet bed from ikea. (which is sitting in my room half put together. ikea furniture is HARD!)

-i scored myself a boyfriend.

-i got a 4.0 in my summer classes.

right now i’m watching season 1 of grey’s anatomy and waiting for it to be 9 so i can get up, take a shower, and help my favorite boy move into their new house! school starts thursday…yuck.

Tuesday

it’s official. i’m obsessed with Matthew and the Arrogant Sea. saw em at Rubber Gloves last weekend and i really can’t get enough. this also might have something to do with the fact that i only have around 10 albums on my iTunes right now. stupid hard drive crashed. (this reminds me that i must raid Tim’s iDisk) but the point is, i love them. quintus, you get a shout out for placing this amazing album into my hands  

getting up at 7 everyday for class is really killing me. i’m so tired all the time. and i keep buying subway everyday on our breaks because i get so hungry during class. this class is making me super poor and exhausted. 

going to Lubbock in 2 days! i bought the benj-inator a present. i’m going to bribe that dog into loving me, just you wait and see. 

i have a surprise for you all tomorrow.

my apartment is raining

so. last night after a few episodes of scrubs and an epic piece of chocolate cake, i fell asleep on the couch. lovely night. or not. i woke up to a sound i can’t even describe, which as it turns out is the sound of a high powered geyser of water knocking the back of my toilet to the floor. wonderful. of course i didn’t know what to do except stand there staring for about a minute, and then i realized that it would probably be best to call emergency maintenance. (question, why do these things always happen at 5 in the fucking morning??) anyway, my bathroom is quickly filling up with water and i’m just running all over my apartment in a panic with no idea what to do until the dude comes. i wish someone had been here to document the pure chaos. i’m pretty sure i broke into hysterical tears at some point when i was trying to shut off the water, but i really don’t know because i was already dripping wet from head to toe.

i look like a drowned rat right now. and i’m really really cold. 

happier things:

1 – yesterday i bought the best card i’ve ever seen. its hilarity probably wouldn’t be appreciated by a lot of people, but i giggled. a lot. 

2- i got to see bri and sydney last night, and we laid in the grass in front of the courthouse on the square.  it felt like paris again, except instead of gypsies we were harassed by hippie art students. 

3- i am again on the hunt for the perfect piece of project furniture for the summer.  those garage sales won’t know what hit em. does anyone have a nail gun i can borrow?

4 – i’m going to the LBK in 5 days to see my sister Melissa and my baby nephew Benjamin. i also get to see Bryan Stokes. that reminds me, i need someone to take me to the airport, because everyone in my family is “busy” that day. 

5 – on monday at 9:30 pm, i will officially be a bum. no more job for amanda. (i got my 5 year pin last night, along with a “happy anniversary” note from the regional manager…wow. see #1. you know you’ve worked at Hallmark for too long when you get excited about a card.)

Ok, the maintenance guy are gone, finally. Goodnight, kind of. I’ll get a few more hours of sleep before I have to get up for work. I’m going to reward myself for this with french toast when I wake up.

“i work hard all week and so do you, we deserve to let off some steam…”

question. have you ever been so tired that every breath you take in requires conscious effort? see, school can kill you, if you let it. 

one more paper and 8 sketches to go…3 hours till i have to leave for class. 6 hours till my papers are due. 12 hours till i have to leave for work. no time for sleep.

mr. collins

you know that guy who plays mr. collins in the kiera knightley version of pride and prejudice? my drawing teacher is exactly like him, down to every last creepy detail. and i have the pleasure of spending 4 hours a day with him breathing down my neck, critiquing my shitty attempts at gesture drawing or whatever. yayyy! there are some upsides to this class, however. i met some very cool people. hippies, but not overbearing about it, a rare find at North Texas. sweet. 

now i’m going to meet bri at jupiter house because i still have to write 7 papers in 3 days.

so i’ve had an epiphany of sorts

the last four months, or at least the last 3 of the last four months, have been hell. i really never thought i could be so sad. when i was like 14 and my older sister got all crazy over guys like this and was raging away up in her bedroom, i would always roll my eyes and swear i would never be that way. hmm. so much for that. 

ok so if you’ve been with someone for over 2 years, you  know you tend to get pretty comfortable with the status quo. they can completely change and you can drift apart, and you’re just blind to it all. i mean, i know i just wanted to be happy with this person that i got used to loving and being with. so when they just “randomly” “for no reason” “out of the blue” end things, its pretty devastating. so there was 3 of the most pathetic months of my life right there. i honestly never want to see myself like that again.

so i had this epiphany the day before i left for London. we’re supposed to hang out one more time because i won’t see him until september (wah wah, how sad). 1. he makes it sound like it’s a huge chore to hang out with me. 2. he shows up looking like he just rolled out of bed, and generally doesn’t give a shit. 3. he’s kind of turned into a big dude bro. ouch.

and then i think back on all the horrible stuff he said to me that i overlooked in my desperation to be with him again. in so many words, i am going to be a terrible mother,  i’m not what he’s looking for in a wife, and i’m holding him back from his dreams of living in the middle east (where did that one come from??). well then. this guy isn’t looking all that fantastic anymore. this is not to say we didn’t have some great times over the last 2 and a half years. hes the first guy i really loved and he’s always going to be a good friend. i got to go to new hampshire a lot to see him, and that was cool. they have really good sandwiches at dartmouth.

yeah so i woke up with a new attitude and went to europe and learned a lot. and now i just want to go up and hug him because he had the balls to dump me on my ass. seriously, best decision ever made. we may have been right for each other at one point, but that point is long gone and we were just hanging on for some reason i haven’t figured out. so a big hearty thanks to you for not giving in to my crying and begging and overall ridiculousness, even though i know it was hard for you too.